vivian 18

she needed a hero, so that's what she became

I’ll hurt and you’ll heal.

Nothingness is all I feel.

It hurts because I gave love a second chance after swearing that I never would again.

You knew what I’ve been through, but you shattered me anyway. I feel humiliated because I was falling for someone who didn’t want anything to do with me. Your words made me feel inhuman and you made it seem like I was incapable of caring for a human being. I grew up caring about everyone but myself. I cared for everyone, and made sure they were happy, before I even learned how to smile for myself. Because of you, I don’t feel good enough for anyone. I don’t feel good enough for anything. It really hurts.

You weren’t that much of a loss. Don’t think too highly of yourself.

I’m actually very deeply hurt and shattered. I just know how to fake a smile better than most.

one last time was all i wanted. one last time, and i swear i would’ve let you be. it was all i wanted

to see you

i swear

there are some things that change even if we don’t want them to..

The thought of you made me happy once

It really feels like I’ve been stabbed in the chest.

i don’t know if i’m feeling it anymore.

"I love him even if he might not love me back.”

I just want to mean something to someone who means something to me, ya feel?

That really fucking hurt

i want to stop thinking about you that’s what i fuckin’ want

i miss how things used to be. more than anything

who am I kidding
you don’t care about me and you never will